Today.

Sucked.
Dad.
Don't call me and tell me not to put that.
Because it mostly did.
Homeroom- People made fun of my voice. I gave Katay her present! Lizzie made me a Twilight shirt, and it is SO cute. I found out we had health, so I ran around frantically to finish my homework. As much as Macy has told me I sound like a smoker and a guy and my voice is weird, she always helps me and thank god.
Health- My number was a negative 3. My eyes were watering so I was like, crying. Mrs Cummings sent me to the nurse, who made me swallow a pill and gave me a breakfast bar. She's pointless. Lizzie was amazed because in the video we watched, the guy was killed when she was one day old. We tried on drunk goggles. Emily's a good drunk. =]
Spanish- I cried some more. Also made some weird noises. Talked about food with Julia.
Lunch- I don't remember. . India commented on how she wished some people would stay away. I agreed.
English- SISTER P SUBBED! I LOVE HER. We didn't really do anything though. I used a lot of tissues.
Study- She made us read for like, an hour. Really unfair. I had to go to the library, but she never told us when we could switch, so I couldn't. I kept putting my head down though. Too tired.
So I kinda used about a million tissues and cried the whole day. A lot of people hugged me. And some people were all, "You sound funny." Or "I think you're sick."
Everyone is so observant.
=]
xxoo

Jas <3

Jas has gotten so big.

She looks pretty today, because she just came back from the groomers.

Well, she's always pretty, but she's soft now too.

And she's just adorable, as always.

We were near Dad's yesterday on the buses and I was like "I wanna go see Jas!"

But the bus diver didn't oblige with my wishes.

Debbie wants to go somewhere now.

xxoo

It's Raining At Home

Honey's here! 
Jasmine isn't a puppy anymore.

She's too big. But I loveeeee her.

It's raining at home, but I'm at Dad and Debbie's looking up alcohol.

No really, it's for health. Raquel's doing drugs, but not like that. 

GAHHH I HAVE TO DO HOMEWORK NOW.

Because apparently uploading pictures of Jas doesn't qualify as health homework.

So says Debbie.

=[

xxoo

Freezing

Here at Dad's, but Dad and Debbie are out.

I'm freezing.

Jas has gotten SO big. 

I'll post pictures later if I can.

xxoo

:[

So I' m not going to be posting as much over the next week. I'll be at Dad's. And I don't know the password. But I'll try to do a post tomorrow before he picks me up, after the movie.
xoxo

Your voice is the soundtrack of my summer

The last few days have been way insane crazy. I haven't posted in a week! That's so not me! What's happening lately:
-Had a sleepover with Gavin and Kyla at Auntie's house. Auntie let Kyla and I try on all of her shoes. It was fabulous.
-Dad got out of the hospital!
-Went to Tina and Glenn's wedding. That was fun. Tina looked wicked pretty.
-Laura's getting a Sidekick slide!
-Started camp. There are some fun people from last year. OMG AND ROSIE'S BROTHER! HE HAS A MOHAWK! He makes my day so much better.
-Changed my name in the school records. Added my middle name in there. You are so jelly.
-Going to see Paramore August 17th. So excited!!
-A bunch of people at camp keep asking if my iPod ever worked again, after I dropped it down like a 10 foot hole last year. [I know I never told you Mom, but I don't even own it anymore. I just figured you would be mad.]
-Laura and I are so upset! We probably aren't going to get to see the Soundtrack Of My Summer tour. And we're really upset because it has Metro Station, Good Charlotte, The Maine, and Boys Like Girls.
-Abbey was so right! I started the Twilight series, and it's addictive. I need the third book, and I can't wait until the fourth one comes out.
-Lizzie is traveling all over the country with Jon Jon. And um, their little doggie friend. They're coming back Wednesday.
-I've discovered almost everyone at camp lives under a rock. I started talking about Paramore, I think it was? Today and they were like 'No idea what you're talking about.'
It's been very hectic. But that's okay. I love you guys, you know that.
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September 7th

So as you may have guessed by my recent lack of posts, not much has happened lately.
-Lizzie broke her nose. But not really. I guess she only cracked it? Whatever. Shes amazing.
-Hannah and Elizah left for Europe. They're going backpacking.
-Dad went into the hospital. He's still not out yet, but he's not sick or anything. [THANKS! to all the AMAZING people who called/IMed/texted me to find out if he was okay:Abbey, Laura, Lizzie, Taylor, Mariana.]
-Mary Ellen got to go to the Tony's! She is so lucky, ohmigod.
-Abbey is totally addicted to New Moon&Twilight.
-Jas got sooooooo big! She bites you a lot. Like, all the time.
-I have decided that I absolutely have to see Grease.
-Laura's going to get a pretty new phone! I think she got it yesterday.
I can't think of anything else. Oh! Except for the fact that Rent is closing after 12 years. It's closing September 7th, so if you haven't seen it get your bum to a theater and see it. NOW. It is amazing, and if you don't see it you're missing out.

Actual reality, act up, fight AIDS!

xoxo

Jazzy!

Okay, so yesterday Dad brought Jas down and ohmigod I was so happy I got to see her!! I'm glad there weren't any THUNDERSTORMS because that wouldn't have been good. We too her to Laura's house and she met Laura's dog, Sam. It was really funny because at first Jas wan't sure if she liked Sam, and she kinda seemed scared of him, but then she totally started chasing him around, and he was like 'Ohmigod!' It was really funny.
More pictures and a video [!!] at Laura's blog.
xoxo

So happy

Dad's bringing Jas down! Yay!
She'g going to meet Laura, Maggie, Nana, and Papa.
[Call if you want to meet her.]
And she's going to be here all day.
Sooo happy right now.
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Don't Drink Dr. Pepper

Hahh today was really long...thank god it was Friday! We only had a four day week put it seemed wicked long.
Homeroom-Ellie was really mean again today. Hmph. We got in a tiff again. She's so mean to me this week.
Computer-ANOTHER FIRE DRILL! AHHHHH! I think we were pretty good. I stole Greta's headband. It looked pretty bangin on me. But then she took it back. Ellie's class kept giving us dirty looks. Again. They're so mean sometimes!
Science-We dissected lilies. Pretty fun. Loved it. I took Ashley's and Lizzie's flowers and put them in my pony tail! It looked pretty rad. Then Laura had flower petals in her hair and she put some in Greta's hair too and they looked amazing. But the actual dissection part was actually fun. Loved how Laura was like 'Shut up Alana!' When I clarified that the teacher was talking about the flower and not her and Greta.
Lunch-I honestly don't remember anything. No lie. Hm...I wonder.....
English-Went to the library with some amazing people. Amy showed all of us her house. Again. Megan did her word search. When we got back to class we worked on our english plays. Laura subbed in for Elizah for a little while, because she and Hannah are out again.
Spanish-WE ♥ DIAPERS! OHEMGEE SO FUNNY! Senora wore a diaper on her head, and Emily did too. [Once Hayley emails me the picture, I'll post it.] Worked on our spanish plays. Mercy Spice and Christian Holiano are in ours. Yeahhhh.
After school-Don't you dare drink Dr. Pepper! Mariana says it's really bad for you. Like, really. No lie. Hmmmm fun though. Ellie and I saw Johnathan and I told him I was a ninja and that I did karate. [Apparently, he does too.]
Fun day. :]
xoxo
And look at think pretty picture Laura made me of Jas! [Dad says he's probably bringing her Saturday, so if you live near me and want to see her call me and maybee we can make it work.]

Todayyy

So I've been at D&d's all day.

Nothing has happened.

It's raining.

It rains a lot here.

Lots of rain.

Anyway, we [That's me and Mercy Spice, thank you very much, Bob] will update later if anything happens.

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my new best friends

Okay, so Dad, Debbie, and I went to see the puppies today, and they are so adorable. We're deff getting a dog, and we're getting her Memorial Day weekend. We're not sure which one yet, because you get to decide when you go. Of course, we have no idea what we're going to name her yet, but we still have a month. [Let me know if you've got a good name.]

The mom, Saira. We saw the dad, Abbott, too, but we didn't get a picture of him.

One of the puppies I was holding, totally fell asleep while I was holding her.

Love them, fersure.

xoxoXO

My foot is asleep

Right now I'm at D&D's, and I'm kind of sick? I had a fever [101.3] this morning and a bad headache. Here with Honey and Deuce [dogs we're dog-sitting, for those of you not in the know *couch cough* Abbey *cough cough*]. They get in fights a lot now, apparently, so the house is split into 2 sections, and one side is Honey's and one side is Deuce's. With like, gates and stuff.

Tomorrow we're going to look at the puppies! So can't wait. I deff wish my camera was working so I could take pictures.

xoxo

!!!!!

So Dad just sent me this e-mail about a new breeder of goldens!! [That's what we always called Cara, because she didn't retrieve anything.] There are 16 puppies, twice the normal amount, 6 boys and 10 girls. We're going to see them on Saturday, we hope. So so exited!! Link here. They are so adorable!!
xoxo

<3

FDD last night was so much fun. A lot of people didn't go, but a lot of people did too so it was ah-may-zing. Sadly I can't give you pictures yet because I'm at Dad's [Happy Birthday Dad] but maybe tomorrow once I get home. But it was fahbulous and we had a brilliant time.  Every ones dress was v. v. pretty and every one's hair was just great. Shoes were cute too, but you knew that everyone was going to take them off anyway. They played the usually generic dance songs, Cotton Eye Joe, Cha Cha Slide, Macerana, Spice Girls, and they played like 5 new songs, 1 of which were the Johnson brothers, and they played a total of 0 of the songs I requested. It's not like they were 'bad' or anything. Fer sure updating with pictures tomorrow!!

Here at Dad's and gave him his prezzie and he loves it. [The Regina Spektor cd that he bought me over a year ago.] It's raining like mad here, and it's driving me crazy. Kind of in a mopey mood anyway though. So...possible update later?? Maybe.

xoxo

XD

Okay, so I'm going to the FDD with Dad tonight, so I might not be able to update about my day, but I'll deff try to. And if there are pictures I'll try to connect them to D&D's computer. So...yeah that's about it. My day today is so easy, oh em gee. I have Spanish [easy], Computer [blahh], Health Fair [idk??], and English [easy].
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The Whole Thing

Here's the whole thing, start to finish. Well, maybe not everything, but the important stuff.
When we went to look at all the dogs I was little. Like, 6 or 7. I kept picking up guys by accident. I was so excited, you wouldn't even believe it, because this was going to be my dog. My dog that I was going to have from when she was a puppy. So we had driven like hours to this breeder with these golden retrievers and we got to meet all the puppies mom and grandma. We finally decided on a gorgeous little girl, but we couldn't take her yet because she wasn't old enough. So we came back, and on the ride home she kept wanting to come in the back seat with me and Katie. She was absolutely ahdorable.

When Cara was still small, like under a year old, she used to love laying under the little ledges from the cabinets in the kitchen. She would stick out a bit, and once or twice I may have tripped over her by accident [no surprise there], but she didn't care. She loved loved laying there, especially if Debbie was cooking and she dropped something, because she could just run over and scoop it up.
If I tried to typed every little thing I remember about Cara this post would take a really long time. If I did type everything about her and you decided to read the whole thing, you would be sitting at your computer for a week. So I'll try and keep this short.
When Cara was 3, she was diagnosed with cancer, lymphoma. She started going to Angell, and even though I wish she never had to go, I'm glad we had such a good hospital to take her to. Everyone there loved her and she was always good for treatments. She went into remission twice, but the cancer kept coming back. She was really doing great until 3 days before Christmas last year. She started shaking and she was mopey, and not herself at all. We took her to Angell and they kept her over night, and Dad and I went to visit her the next day. She was doing so good, and we just sat there for like half an hour with her in her little area. And I've got to tell you, even though she was doing better, it's scary seeing someone you love connected to an IV. I know it doesn't hurt [I've had one] but it's scary. So I want back home that night. The next night, it's Christmas Eve. Mom, Dave and I were almost ready to go to Auntie Sue's house, when Dad calls. And Cara has a tumor. And we're going to have to put her to sleep. Ha asks if I want them to wait until I can see her, and I'm like, 'Not if she's going to be in pain.' So that's it. I didn't want her to be kept waiting on me if she was going to be in pain. I really, really loved her, more than you would ever know, but I really think she knew that.
I've done a lot of crying over Cara, more than I thought I would. Most of you reading this have probably never seen me really cry, and trust me, you probably don't want to.
One thing that was really hard was going to Dad's and not having a dog there. I had been coming here to see her 5 years and it's just not the same. It was hard seeing that one Christmas present under the tree when all the other ones had been opened. It was hard getting up in the morning and not having her come say hello. It was even hard not seeing her and Blizz fight over the couch.
Now that we're going to be getting a new dog soon, I'm really happy, but I'm scared too. [I cried in the car when Dad told me.] I don't want that all to happen again. And I know that what ever dog we're going to get could never replace Cara, but I don't think we're looking to replace her, I think we're just looking for a dog. Somebody to hug, somebody to have greet you in the morning, somebody that you have to house-train all over again. And you know what?? I absolutely can't wait.
xoxoXO

Yesterday&&Today

So yesterday was fun!! Lizzie's party then Papa's.
Lizzie's- Fahbulous people. We skateboarded. Hannah fell and got a cut [she's okay]. She also ruined Laura's shoes. Greta and Lizzie are fab at Guitar Hero. I drank Dr. Pepper. Deff picture update letter when I can connect my camera.
Update!!
Lizzie takes up smoking. [Shh, don't tell] She's quite horrified as you can see.
Laura is against smoking. Obviously.
Owls are cute. ♥
Greta es muy macho. [Ha! A whole sentence in Spanish!]
Hannah loves skateboarding.
Papa's-Had a duck race, but the ducks got stuck so I had to climb up the waterfall to get them out. Auntie helped. The we talked about Saw movies and such. Then G and I slept over.
And today was ah-may-zing too!! With Dad all day.
Got an iPod touch!! Love it, it's so fierce. Really fab!!
Dad told me that he and Debbie decided that we are getting another dog! A golden, duh, in May or June. I'm so happy!
xoxoXO
[Picture update later, fer sure.]

Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac

This book is so amazingly wonderful, I can't even tell you. It's sad but it's amazing too.

Anyway. Sleepover at Maggie's last night, watched RENT with Jeremy and it was amazing.

At Dad's not. Tina, Glenn, and Mitchell are supposed to be coming.

Italy meeting at 4 tomorrow. Working on passport??

Deff updating tomorrow morning.

xoxox

Right now

I'm at D&D's and they don't have any tea, and that is greatly upsetting. So anyway, we're just chilling, and Maggie is on the floor chewing on her little bone thing. I just told her she has a big head, which she does, but in the cutest possible way.

Party wasn't that, I always think it will be because there is no one my age, but it was fine. So now we're here and I'm kind of wondering if we have any popsicles, because I was just e-mailing Elise about them [Feel better soon Elise!!] so I am going to check.

xoxo