I Can't Even Think Of a Suitible Title For This.

Leave.
It.
Alone.
I'm sick of this.
Of all of it.
Of so many people.
Of all the stuff it's caused.
Of all the things people have said.
Of everything that's come of it.
And I don't understand some of it.
And it seems like no one gets that.
And some of it just makes me so upset.

CALIFORNIA?





of course not.

Music <3

Everything from Photobucket. Random lines from random songs.

^Disco - Metro Station

^Fscene8 - The Medic Droid

^Love Story - Taylor Swift

^Give Me Anything - The Maine

^That's What She Said - Friday Night Boys
Tired. Long day. I'll blog about it later.
I sound like a smoker, and everyone makes fun of me for it *cough* Macy and Dave *cough*.
So I guess I'm kinda sick?
xxoo

Some Nights

some nights
when it's late
and i'm half asleep
music blasting through my headphones
something loud and angry or soft and sad
acoustic makes all the difference
i'm sad
i'm horrible
i'm confused
some nights
i wish a hundred times for everything to be okay
i wish a thousand times to fix everything, and for nothing to break again
i wish a million times not to loose you, because that would hurt too much
i wish too much, but sometimes wishing seems like the only way to make it work out alright
some nights
i think of differences
i think of fakes
i think of mistakes
i think of goodbyes
i think of you
i think of everything and more
some nights
i dream of leaving here
i dream of running away from this, from everything
i believe metro station when they say if you drive all night you can reach california by the morning
i echo phantom planet in whispering 'california, california, here we come'
i know leaving won't help anything, but i can't help but dream
some nights
i just cry
i cry for a long time, until it feels like there's nothing left
i cry until all that's there is me and the huge salty ocean, and it feels as if i've forgotten how to stay floating
so i sink
some nights
i dread tomorrow
it seems like i have nothing to look forward too
i want to open the window, jump out and runrunrun
i trust we the kings, because if i ran, i'd never look back
i'd still want to be back for morning
i'm never sure what makes me want to come back, never full sure
some nights
i miss the way things used to be, and the way things were before that too
i miss you looking at me and running over when i'd walk down the stairs as if it made your freaking day
i miss hugging you, because it felt safe there, far away from everything else
i miss you
i miss you so much, and i'll think of how much you taught me and gave me
some nights
my head hurts from all this
i'll have a stomach ache
my hands will shake
i won't be able to sleep
i toss and turn the whole time
then i'm dreadfully tired
some nights
i do sleep
i think i might dream, but i can never remember
it always seems as if i'm forgetting something when i get up
some nights
my iPod plays through all of this
i'll fall asleep listening to music
there's a song in my head that reminds me of most of these things
there's a song for everything, some nights

some nights, i feel terrible
most nights, i hate tomorrow
but all nights, iloveyou

307-59

i want to be there

Your voice is the soundtrack of my summer

The last few days have been way insane crazy. I haven't posted in a week! That's so not me! What's happening lately:
-Had a sleepover with Gavin and Kyla at Auntie's house. Auntie let Kyla and I try on all of her shoes. It was fabulous.
-Dad got out of the hospital!
-Went to Tina and Glenn's wedding. That was fun. Tina looked wicked pretty.
-Laura's getting a Sidekick slide!
-Started camp. There are some fun people from last year. OMG AND ROSIE'S BROTHER! HE HAS A MOHAWK! He makes my day so much better.
-Changed my name in the school records. Added my middle name in there. You are so jelly.
-Going to see Paramore August 17th. So excited!!
-A bunch of people at camp keep asking if my iPod ever worked again, after I dropped it down like a 10 foot hole last year. [I know I never told you Mom, but I don't even own it anymore. I just figured you would be mad.]
-Laura and I are so upset! We probably aren't going to get to see the Soundtrack Of My Summer tour. And we're really upset because it has Metro Station, Good Charlotte, The Maine, and Boys Like Girls.
-Abbey was so right! I started the Twilight series, and it's addictive. I need the third book, and I can't wait until the fourth one comes out.
-Lizzie is traveling all over the country with Jon Jon. And um, their little doggie friend. They're coming back Wednesday.
-I've discovered almost everyone at camp lives under a rock. I started talking about Paramore, I think it was? Today and they were like 'No idea what you're talking about.'
It's been very hectic. But that's okay. I love you guys, you know that.
<33333

Bored...

Okay, so there's this dance at school tonight, and I'm way bored waiting for Laura to pick me up.
So I just bought Metro Station's cd and I love Ashley because she knows who they are! [They are, quite obviously, a band.] Yay! Today when I asked Maggie if she liked them she was like 'What's a Metro Station?' I love it though! I mean come on....
It's going to get harder
And it's going to burn brighter, and it's going to feel tougher each and every day
So let me say that I love you, you're all that I've ever wanted
All that I've ever dreamed of to come, and yes you did come
I want you so bad, can you feel it too?
You know I'm so, I'm so in love you
I want you for so much, I need you for so much
I need you, I need you, your love
Wasn't that sweet? <3

Choosing an icon!

Don't know whether to go with:
-Where do we go from here?
-Brits rule
-British flag
-A pink Cadillac
I'm going with the Buffy one. I LOVE Buffy&The Slayer-ettes. And the rest of the cast, of course, as the Slayer-ettes are only Willow and Xander. From season 2.
I need you all to watch this because I am now watching it for the 4th time, and Ashely has prob watched it about 4 times as well! Once More, With Feeling!
So, my day...lots happened.
Homeroom-We got yelled at by...4 teachers because apparently our coat room is a mess. Then Amanda, Kelly and I talked about confiscating Nintendo's. Then Maggie made a political bash against someone else running for Student Council in our home room! Gasp! She was like "If you vote for me I promise to actually do good things, and not be a shallow preppy girl." Of course the person she was talking about had no idea even though she was like, 8 feet away. Here's the list of people running: Maggie, Macy, Alana, Kayleigh, Meghna.
Gym: Spent half the class presenting health projects. Then did stretches. Have you ever felt like a flamingo-frog-bunny-Egyptian??? Then...softball. Fun. *SARCASM LIZZIE*
Science: Did an lab looking at a leaf with Megan. Looked at a leaf. I always think its good to know who wears underwear and who doesn't, don't you?
Lunch: Confiscation sucks. And if your going to do it, don't in purple shoes that don't match your BRIGHT RED PANTS!
English: Megan and I did a page in Amy's friend book, then we started on our Rikki-Tikki-Tavi thing, with my lovely group of four, Abby as Nagina, Katie as Darzi, and Kayla as Rikki. And me, obviously, as Nag. So we had to use th characters from the story (The 4 already mentioned.), and it's set in Vegas, because Me and Abby/Nag and Nagina are getting married, with Rikki as the like guy that conducts the ceromony in the cheap Vegas chapel. And we have lovely extras!!!
Amy-Elvis impersonator(I mean, what's a Vegas wedding without an Elvis impersonator?)
Lizzie-Ron Weasly
Raquel-Hannah Montana
Greta-Marylin Monroe
Hannah-Kelly from Shoes
I really wanted to have Fred, because you guys know how I love Fred! But Abby was said no. I love Fred. But you knew that.
Spanish: Organized our binders, then got them graded. I got a 100.
Bus was fun, as always.
Well, stuff. Places to go...like California! People to see...like Fred!
I love you all, but you knew that. :] *Get better soon Ashley, because you are the best person ever! Just say you're happy now, once more with feeling!*
IT'S 10:10! MAKE A WISH!
I WISH I HAD A PONY!
(So do Fred and Buffy, my 2 best friends, best of all best friends, do you have a best friend too? they tickle in my tummy oh so yummy-yummy, hey you should get a best friend too!)