I adore this girl

Greta has made my day today. A million times over.
"so Riley and Buffy the WHOLE episode are in his bed. just gettin' it AWNN. haha. but they can't help it cuz its a curse. "
My day is now complete.
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Talk To Me, I Talk Back

Is it just me or does this sound better when Nickasaur! does it?

I adore him.

Snow day today! They called off school at like, 11 last night, so I got to sleep in. I've been listening to 3OH!3, Lady Gaga, and this kid named Chance who does covers of really good songs on YouTube. I'm also doing laundry. GOD I am so boring. I wanna go out and do something but I doubt I can get out of the driveway. Finished season 4 of Buffy last night! Very anti-climactic. Maybe I'll update later if anything fun happens.
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One Of THOSE Nights

Obviously, I've bought The Cab's new cd. I love it.
Happy New Year I guess. Twenty oh nine, as Sister P would say.
Nothing has happened. Everything has happened.
I don't know what to say anymore. When I do know, I don't know how to say it.
I don't think I'm going to blog anymore.
Maybe this is a lie, maybe I'll go back to that hellhole tomorrow, and something amazing will happen and I'll have to blog about it.
The odds of this happening aren't good.
If I do decide to blog again, I have no idea what it will be about.
Maybe I'll make it private, so only certain people can view it.
I'm indecisive. I don't know.
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Once things are said, you can't take them back.
You can try, and maybe things will work out.
But they were still said. They were still out there.
Words kill. They hurt.
Even ones that you don't think will.
Words are two-faced. They have double meanings.
It all depends on how they're said.
I hate that this whole thing has happened.
You know what thing.
And I hate myself for not knowing what to do about it.
Or what to say, and when to say it.
About not knowing how to feel.
But I wanted to say thankyou to everyone who apologized.
Everyone who tried to fix it.
Everyone who knew what to try to do.
Everyone who knew what to say, whether it helped the situation and was said publicly, or whether it made someone feel better and was said privately.
I'm sorry too. It's late, I know. But I wasn't sure how to address things.
And I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow at school.
I know that I've missed some people like CRAZY.
And I know I'm going to need a solid hug from someone.
Because that might help.
But part of me doesn't want that.
Part of me doesn't want to go in tomorrow and go down the hallway and hug everyone I've missed insanely for the past two weeks.
Part of me doesn't want to hug or see or be near anyone, like I would on a normal day.
Part of me wants to go in tomorrow and just stay locked in the bathroom stall all homeroom and hide and cry.
Honestly, that's what might end up happening. Because it is really hard to not cry without closing your eyes or blinking fast like a spaz.
Part of me is scared as hell to go there tomorrow and see everyone. Because all I can think of is "Where Do We Go From Here?" from that musical Buffy episode.
That's all I can think of for more people than you'd think.
Because I'm not sure I'll know what to say to anyone. I feel like I'll freeze. I'll be stuck.
I'm a fucking mess.
I need help taking everything away, to keep it off my mind, and usually being with some people from school would stop that.
But now, I'm not sure what I need.
Because I'm insecure as hell.
I can't sleep at night. Even if I do, I'm always tired. No matter what.
I hate feeling cut off from people.
I have all the lights possible on in my room right now. It seems dark without it.
I can't stand it at home, but I don't want to go anywhere else either.
I hate thinking about things.
I don't want to be around people, or I feel like I don't anyways.
But maybe when I actually am, I'll feel better.
I hate some people.
But I love others.
I don't know whats going to happen tomorrow.
I don't know how I'm going to keep everything in.
Like crying. I don't know how I'm going to appear happy.
I don't know if I'll come back here.
But I don't know if I can. I'm not sure how I feel about blogging anymore.
That thing kind of ruined it, it feels heavy now.
I'm trying so hard not to feel any of this, because that's how I deal.
I ignore things, I try not to feel them.
I act like I don't care, when on the inside I'm really falling apart.
But its coming in, all of it. I'm not holding it out well enough.
I'm a shitty friend.
I'm jealous.
I'm bitchy.
I'm worried.
I'm lost.
I'm insecure.
I'm scared.
I don't know what to do.

We ♥ vegetarian vampires

So last night I finished Eclipse at like 11:30 and it was completely AMAZING. Eclipse is the third book in a series about Bella, and the vampire she's in love with, Edward. I really can't say anything else, because some people are still reading it. But it's totally and completely fabulous and wonderful and I can't believe I have to wait until August 2nd for Breaking Dawn. Abbey really needs to hurry up and finish Eclipse though, so I can talk to her about it. And I'm really really glad Tori didn't tell me the ending yesterday, as that would have totally ruined it for me. I really can't wait for the movie of the first book Twilight either, and it come out December 12th. I seriously don't know how I'm going to wait. It's totally nothing like Buffy though. The vampires can go into sunlight, and they're not ugly. I deff like them better here. They are totally, with out a doubt, ferosh.
xoxo

Twice !

Hahahaa today was so random. I don't remember doing much....
Homeroom- Ellie is such a twit. She's really mean to me. But, on the bright side, Taylor makes a lovely psychiatrist. But, on the bad side, another lizard died, but on the good side, Hannah isn't sick anymore! But...Elizah is, so that's not good.
Study- Boring as usual. Went to the library. Just kinda sat in the window in front of the religious books. We didn't even need to go, but we do anyway because study just gets soooooo boring! And I need to go for little walks every once in a while, or else I'll get restless. But I got that bear Abby gave me back! [Mercy Spice's cousin.] I think his name is Christian Holiano. But I don't know yet. [Yes, Laura came up with that too. Thinking outside the box!!]
History- Megan and Rosa presented their projects and then we watched a video while working on our maps. Not too exciting. Oh wait! We had a fire drill. So we're standing there and Laura's like 'Where's our class?' and Lizzie's like 'They're not here.' So Lizzie like raises her hand really high and shes like 'WE'RE LOST!' It was sooo funny. So what really happened was half of our class went to the front of the building, half went in front of the gym [that would be our group], and only Julia went to the right place because the teachers told her where to go, because she's on crutches. So then we get yelled at because apparently, we were supposed to go behind the gym. Oh, well. We were close enough, and no one died, so who cares?
Lunch- Can't she ever buy her own lunch? Oh, and then Greta has to go and talk about Buffy....I didn't need to hear that, not while eating. Or at all.....
Religion- Hayley prayed for Jazzy! Yay! [I would like today thank you to all the people who prayed for her last class, ie, Edy, Lizzie, and Amy.] Sister P keeps snubbing Laura! I felt really bad. Abbey threw her pen at me. Rudely, I would like to point out. We still didn't finish Sandlot. But we're pretty close to the end, I think. A bunch of us were sitting on the floor and I can hear Amanda behind me and shes like 'Aww, that dog is so cute!!' And I'm like 'Amanda, he's supposed to be vicious.' Amy did a lovely mime thing in front of the class after she got a tan from standing in front of the window.
Math- Some probability worksheet. Boring. BUT WAIT! We have another fire drill! And the class manages to stay together this time! So we go to the back of the gym, all proud of ourselves acting all hyper in front of the little kids, like normal. But then we're like 'Wait. Where are the teachers?' So we go back inside and the teacher is all 'You guys were wonderful!' So I'm like 'Were we in the wrong place?' And she's like 'Yeah, you were supposed to be in front of the gym' So everyones like 'ARE YOU SERIOUS?' Because we had gotten yelled at for going in the front! It was quite funny.
But other that that?? Nothing much. Probably a lot of other stuff happened that I can't remember.

Today

I highly highly doubt today will be a good day.
But who knows?
History's last and I already have a stomachache.
Oh, and here's that video.

He can't die though. He just can't. Season finale next Monday and if he dies....he can't die. [The fall was very Angel though. You know, Angel from Buffy.]
xoxo

2.4

That was my 'number' in health. 2.4, so yeah, today was kinda blahh!
Homeroom-Ran around like a cah-ray-zee [I like syllables!] person!
Spanish-Learned about...Plurals stuff! And yummy stuff. Yummy bananas and hamburgers.
Health-OH BOY DO I HAVE A SHOCKER FOR YOU GUYS!!!! Health was fun, I'm not even kidding! We did three drug plays and the fake heroin the crack pack brought in was so yummy. [Canadian mints.]
Science- Worked on the kids. Our peoples names are Matthew and Elle and the kids names are Freddie, Buffy, Delilah, Stephen, Edward, and Jack. I love them all! Except for Edward.
English-Did A Christmas Carrol. I was the narrator. I read things such as 'Thunder crashed in the distance.' I was fabulous! Hehe.
After school-Made flowers, had cake, cleaned coffee pots, talked about trees, gave people middle names, used blackmail, went blind, fell over, distracted people, drooled over hot chocolate, knocked on doors, and gestured at by a cleaning lady on her birthday.
You can never have too much fun. Ever.


xoxo

Project Runway

So, Project Runway is starting on Bravo on November 14th, and I'm really happy because it's been a long time since Season 3 ended. And I can't wait! Too much time without Tim Gunn, it can't be good for the brain. He has his own TV show now though. Meet the lovely cast here.
So, we are at this antique store on...Sunday and there's this girl there with a really cute hoodie. i was like MOM! I LOVE THAT! So here's her website. It's cool. Anyway,homework to do, cats to feed, Stephen Colbert and Buffy to watch. You know, that last one is especially important. Can't get by without The Colbert Report! xoxoxox byeee

Fridy, Lovely Friday

Lovely to be back in school, in some ways..it sucked in others, though. I was sick yesterday, so I stayed home. And spent almost all of the day talking to Ashley. She's the bomb by the way. Today:
*Extended* Homeroom- People presented their speeches for student council. Maggie and Macy ended up winning in our homeroom. So...VOTE TAYLO!!!
Science- Had a sub...she was kinda creepy, she kept looking at me suspiciously. She wouldn't let us talk at all. Or look at the adorable turtle!
English-Sub. English vocab test, then just talked. They tied to keep us quiet but, yeah righ, like that was gunna happen.
Lunch-Ate stuff.
Spanish-Er verbs...and FIYAHHH DRILLL! IN THE RAIN! (I didn't fall this time.) So we were like, dancing around, then we went into the gym, and sat. Laura played with my toothbrush, and I gave like, 4 people those little wooden-y ice cream spoons. Then we went back in and did work.
Gym-Fitness center. Warning-Listening to the step aerobics version of Hips Don't Lie 6 times in a row may be hazardous to your health.
Well, I think we might be starting season 3 of Buffy tonight...loves to you all! xoxoxo

Choosing an icon!

Don't know whether to go with:
-Where do we go from here?
-Brits rule
-British flag
-A pink Cadillac
I'm going with the Buffy one. I LOVE Buffy&The Slayer-ettes. And the rest of the cast, of course, as the Slayer-ettes are only Willow and Xander. From season 2.
I need you all to watch this because I am now watching it for the 4th time, and Ashely has prob watched it about 4 times as well! Once More, With Feeling!
So, my day...lots happened.
Homeroom-We got yelled at by...4 teachers because apparently our coat room is a mess. Then Amanda, Kelly and I talked about confiscating Nintendo's. Then Maggie made a political bash against someone else running for Student Council in our home room! Gasp! She was like "If you vote for me I promise to actually do good things, and not be a shallow preppy girl." Of course the person she was talking about had no idea even though she was like, 8 feet away. Here's the list of people running: Maggie, Macy, Alana, Kayleigh, Meghna.
Gym: Spent half the class presenting health projects. Then did stretches. Have you ever felt like a flamingo-frog-bunny-Egyptian??? Then...softball. Fun. *SARCASM LIZZIE*
Science: Did an lab looking at a leaf with Megan. Looked at a leaf. I always think its good to know who wears underwear and who doesn't, don't you?
Lunch: Confiscation sucks. And if your going to do it, don't in purple shoes that don't match your BRIGHT RED PANTS!
English: Megan and I did a page in Amy's friend book, then we started on our Rikki-Tikki-Tavi thing, with my lovely group of four, Abby as Nagina, Katie as Darzi, and Kayla as Rikki. And me, obviously, as Nag. So we had to use th characters from the story (The 4 already mentioned.), and it's set in Vegas, because Me and Abby/Nag and Nagina are getting married, with Rikki as the like guy that conducts the ceromony in the cheap Vegas chapel. And we have lovely extras!!!
Amy-Elvis impersonator(I mean, what's a Vegas wedding without an Elvis impersonator?)
Lizzie-Ron Weasly
Raquel-Hannah Montana
Greta-Marylin Monroe
Hannah-Kelly from Shoes
I really wanted to have Fred, because you guys know how I love Fred! But Abby was said no. I love Fred. But you knew that.
Spanish: Organized our binders, then got them graded. I got a 100.
Bus was fun, as always.
Well, stuff. Places to go...like California! People to see...like Fred!
I love you all, but you knew that. :] *Get better soon Ashley, because you are the best person ever! Just say you're happy now, once more with feeling!*
IT'S 10:10! MAKE A WISH!
I WISH I HAD A PONY!
(So do Fred and Buffy, my 2 best friends, best of all best friends, do you have a best friend too? they tickle in my tummy oh so yummy-yummy, hey you should get a best friend too!)

THEY GOT THE MUSTARD OUT!!!

So at the flea market the other day, right? And I'm buying this pink Cadillac sign for my room, it's so cute! Anyway, Dave comes up, and he's all "I think I found something yo might want, but it depends how popular it is.." So I'm like "Go, hurry!" Because who am I to pass up an opportunity to buy something? So it turns out to be a CD, from the musical episode of Buffy (Once More, with Feeling, Season 6), which I haven't seen yet...but I like it! Not all of them have great voices, but it's cool. It's...it's really something to sing about! Really!
So I'm here, doing homework...sort of! Actually, I'm talking to Leena, about how she's gonna blow up the stage, but then I thought that that could be sort of messy, so I'm just deciding she will leave people speechless! Huggs for Emily, and Ashley, and Frenche, because its vair vair sadd, and they SO should have made it. Hello! Outrage here people! So huggs for them.
Auntie, if your reading this, can you make me a copy of Man of La Mancha, and you better hide your shoes, because I'm going to steal them! FER SURE!
Well darlings, I must go. Good-bye, adios, au revoir, auf wiedersehen(Heidi!!), arrivederchi, whatever! xoxoxo byee!

Buffy the Vampire Slayer...

Is definitely the best show EVER. I lovey-lover-love-obsessed-ADDICTED to it. It's like my anti-drug. So far we have watched about half way, maybe more of the second season, and it is FAB. Some of the characters in the episodes just make me go 'Ohmigawd, you rock!' And it's really funny. You wouldn't think so, with the whole 'DIE VAMPIRES' thing but it really is. It's sad sometimes too though, like when Jenny dies in Passion. Weepy-weep. And with Angelus it's um, well quite frankly, it's ugly. Vampire faces are yuck. Yes so, best show EVER, remember that!