D&d's

The ususal.

Jasmine's adorable.

Although sometimes annoying.

Blizz is just in a bad mood.

But she's cute.

Did a video chat with Lizzie yesterday.

She doesn't talk. Weirdo. <3

I got to see my 3rd and 4th favorite cats though, Oscar and Lila.

Superfun. =]

xxoo

What's Not To Adore?

NeverShoutNever!

Trouble. ^ So good. Lizzie showed it to me. It's really amazing.

Not much is happening.

Jas pushed me over a gate. The gate broke.

xxoo.

Catching Up

Happy birthday Hayley Williams [lead singer of Paramore].

And because I missed so many birthday posts...

Happy birthday Amy, Alana, and Rian Dawson [the drummer or All Time Low].
xxoo

I'm Not One For Love Songs

Mall today.
Delia's gift card. =]
&& PACSUN too !
And Target, but they don't have one in this mall.
Update later.
iloveyouu..

Addicted <3

I'm here with Steven.

And we're like, having seizures.
It's pretty fun.
And listening to Addicted, by Saving Abel.
And he's bowling now.
He wants me to add how it's on his iPod.
HE GOT A SPARE.
I have no idea what that means, but he sounds happy about it.
He needs to pull his pants up.
He's weird.
His sister, Jessica, kills him at night, with a feather and a glass starfish.
She loves Selena Gomez.
I told her that Miley Cyrus was fun too.
We're watching a Panic! At The Disco music video now.
He's getting mad at me now.
I'm "going to make him cry."
So I'll update later.
xxoo

Didn't Get A Damn Thing From My Christmas List

The Maine never disappoints.
'Santa Stole My Girlfriend' from their new EP '...And A Happy New Year.'
My favorite Christmas song.
I want this EP so bad.
There's three other Christmas songs on it, and although I usually don't like them, The Maine is too amazing to pass up.
Merry Christmas day. Hope it's nice.
I'll try to update later.
xxoo

One Year.

One year.
Three hundred and sixty five days.
Five hundred, twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes.
I love you so much.
And I miss you more than words could ever show.
Merry Christmas.

Or Happy Hannukah.

Whichever one you'd rather celebrate.
[Regardless of your religion.]
iloveyou.
xoxoxo

Please, Don't Mind What I'm Trying To Say Because I'm, I'm Being Honest

Emily & yoga today.

Emily makes me think and yoga give me too much time to think about too much.

She says I have to use “I statements” and so I was thinking about that in yoga.

And I came up with way to much, in no order.

But here’s what some of it was.

I’m a mess.

I’m totally scatterbrained.

I can’t remember things.

If something happens I’ll have to think about it for a long time before addressing it.

I’ll worry about it indefinitely.

I’ll think “what if…” a lot, and that makes me worry even more.

If something happens and it’s my fault, I’ll feel absolutely terrible about it.

If something happens that’s not really my fault, I’ll find a way to look at it so that it is.

That’s a bad habit, like biting my nails, but I keep doing it.

I know it’s bad, and that people might take advantage of it, but I trust people too much.

I only really, really trust about 5 or 6 people.

I’d only tell anything to about 3 of them.

I only trust one of them more than anything.

I cry far too much.

I don’t like crying in front of people, at all.

I have cried in front of people that I wouldn’t have chosen to cry in front of.

There are 2 people I’d cry in front of anytime.

Sometimes I cry over things that people think are stupid.

I cry when I watch Rent.

But I don’t think that’s a stupid reason, no matter what anyone else says.

I hold things in.

But I’ll be honest with almost anyone, as long as they me to be.

It’s not that I lie to people.

It’s just if I don’t feel like taking about something, or I can’t talk about it I’ll brush it off.

But if someone asks me to be honest, I will be.

I don’t know how to say things some of the time.

I won’t know how to put what I’m feeling into words.

And sometimes I can’t, and that makes me really frustrated.

Especially when it makes someone else think that I don’t want to tell them.

Then I just feel bad, because of course that’s not true.

Hugs always make me feel better.

Hugs are best if the person you’re hugging is about the same size as you.

As in height, and they can’t be too thin or too heavy.

I like hugging tall people though, second best.

I don’t like being alone anymore.

I used to, but I like being with people better now.

That makes me feel incredibly silly and insecure and dependent.

I hatehatehate feeling that way.

But I do.

So I can’t stand being alone.

I feel better if I’m with someone who makes me happy.

I love these people.

Someone who, when I’m with them, it seems like everything bad goes away.

The littlest and silliest things make me happy.

Pinkie Pie?

Waffles?

Mercy Spice and Christian Holiano?

Popsicles? Especially raspberry?

They seem really silly, and people laugh.

(And call me a second grader.) =]

But these things make me smile, like a clever verse from one of my favorite songs.

I live off music.

Songs help me get through anything bad that happens.

I can have one line from one song stuck in my head that will repeat over and over, or a whole song that I’ve heard so many times it’s memorized, but either way, having something stuck in my head makes me feel stronger.

CDs are amazing.

Performances can be either fabulous or terrible.

They don’t sound the same as CDs.

Hearing something live is the absolute best though, because you can feel the bass from the song, and it’s so loud.

It goes right through you.

It seems like too much at first, but it’s really incredible.

I’m not sure how to finish this off, really, because this all seems so…unlike me.

But I was being totally honest through out the whole thing.

So, please, don’t mind what I’m trying to say, because I’m, I’m being honest.

Cartel-Honestly

I Can't Even Think Of a Suitible Title For This.

Leave.
It.
Alone.
I'm sick of this.
Of all of it.
Of so many people.
Of all the stuff it's caused.
Of all the things people have said.
Of everything that's come of it.
And I don't understand some of it.
And it seems like no one gets that.
And some of it just makes me so upset.

CALIFORNIA?





of course not.

Wish You Were Here ?

That's fersure.
Cameras working again.
Out today.
I'll update later.
♥patron!♥

Exams

I hate studying.
I also hate all this.
It's like...Dramafest.
Only real.
I kinda just want everyone to go away.
Well, not everyone.
But some people, yeah.
I have to go study for science now.
loveyouu.
kinda.
xxoo

22 <3

Happy Birthday Alex Gaskarth.

You. Are amazing.
&& That's a fact.

<3

Yoga & God

Maggie loves yoga.
And God.
And looking up books about poo.
Ahahaha she's crazy.
But I LOVE HER ANYWAYS !

Sorry I haven't updated in so long...

I Said Enough, I'm Letting Go

There is absolutely nothing like powerpop electronica music to make you feel like nothing can ruin you.

TheMedicDroid,JeffreeStar,3OH!3,Millionaires,HollywoodUndead,ChrisCrocker.

Unfortunately.

This is not true.

A lot of things ruin you.

But it's nice to feel like nothing could.

You Wear Your Heart On Your Sleeve && Threw Mine To The Sky

I love The Cab.
I need Whisper War.
I think it will be amazing.
And I can't wait to buy it.
Some of their songs:

Bounce


I'll Run


Take My Hand

They are all really good.
But really, I think about everyone is named Alex. There are three Alex's in The Cab alone. Alex DeLeon, Alex Johnson, and Alex Marshall. [The other two members are Cash Colligan and Ian Crawford.] And then, there's Alex Gaskarth [All Time Low] and Alex Greenwald [Phantom Planet]. And Alex Evans. And then there's Katay's Alex, and Emma's too.
Too many.
But I really do adore The Cab.
<3
xxoo

Today.

Sucked.
Dad.
Don't call me and tell me not to put that.
Because it mostly did.
Homeroom- People made fun of my voice. I gave Katay her present! Lizzie made me a Twilight shirt, and it is SO cute. I found out we had health, so I ran around frantically to finish my homework. As much as Macy has told me I sound like a smoker and a guy and my voice is weird, she always helps me and thank god.
Health- My number was a negative 3. My eyes were watering so I was like, crying. Mrs Cummings sent me to the nurse, who made me swallow a pill and gave me a breakfast bar. She's pointless. Lizzie was amazed because in the video we watched, the guy was killed when she was one day old. We tried on drunk goggles. Emily's a good drunk. =]
Spanish- I cried some more. Also made some weird noises. Talked about food with Julia.
Lunch- I don't remember. . India commented on how she wished some people would stay away. I agreed.
English- SISTER P SUBBED! I LOVE HER. We didn't really do anything though. I used a lot of tissues.
Study- She made us read for like, an hour. Really unfair. I had to go to the library, but she never told us when we could switch, so I couldn't. I kept putting my head down though. Too tired.
So I kinda used about a million tissues and cried the whole day. A lot of people hugged me. And some people were all, "You sound funny." Or "I think you're sick."
Everyone is so observant.
=]
xxoo