I Can't Even Think Of a Suitible Title For This.

Leave.
It.
Alone.
I'm sick of this.
Of all of it.
Of so many people.
Of all the stuff it's caused.
Of all the things people have said.
Of everything that's come of it.
And I don't understand some of it.
And it seems like no one gets that.
And some of it just makes me so upset.

CALIFORNIA?





of course not.

Some Nights

some nights
when it's late
and i'm half asleep
music blasting through my headphones
something loud and angry or soft and sad
acoustic makes all the difference
i'm sad
i'm horrible
i'm confused
some nights
i wish a hundred times for everything to be okay
i wish a thousand times to fix everything, and for nothing to break again
i wish a million times not to loose you, because that would hurt too much
i wish too much, but sometimes wishing seems like the only way to make it work out alright
some nights
i think of differences
i think of fakes
i think of mistakes
i think of goodbyes
i think of you
i think of everything and more
some nights
i dream of leaving here
i dream of running away from this, from everything
i believe metro station when they say if you drive all night you can reach california by the morning
i echo phantom planet in whispering 'california, california, here we come'
i know leaving won't help anything, but i can't help but dream
some nights
i just cry
i cry for a long time, until it feels like there's nothing left
i cry until all that's there is me and the huge salty ocean, and it feels as if i've forgotten how to stay floating
so i sink
some nights
i dread tomorrow
it seems like i have nothing to look forward too
i want to open the window, jump out and runrunrun
i trust we the kings, because if i ran, i'd never look back
i'd still want to be back for morning
i'm never sure what makes me want to come back, never full sure
some nights
i miss the way things used to be, and the way things were before that too
i miss you looking at me and running over when i'd walk down the stairs as if it made your freaking day
i miss hugging you, because it felt safe there, far away from everything else
i miss you
i miss you so much, and i'll think of how much you taught me and gave me
some nights
my head hurts from all this
i'll have a stomach ache
my hands will shake
i won't be able to sleep
i toss and turn the whole time
then i'm dreadfully tired
some nights
i do sleep
i think i might dream, but i can never remember
it always seems as if i'm forgetting something when i get up
some nights
my iPod plays through all of this
i'll fall asleep listening to music
there's a song in my head that reminds me of most of these things
there's a song for everything, some nights

some nights, i feel terrible
most nights, i hate tomorrow
but all nights, iloveyou

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i want to be there

BA BA BA BAP BAP SHADOOBIE DOO!

I LOVE THIS SONG!
Do The Panic, Phantom Planet!
xxoo

I LOVE YOU JEREMY!!

I just got back from the Paramore concert, and it was so AMAZING!

[From left to right, Josh, Hayley, Zac, and Jeremy]

I went with Auntie Kim and it was sooooooo fun! Paramore was so good, and Hayley had so much energy. She told this story about the last time they were playing here, Jeremy was going to do a flip during 'Pressure', only there was a nail on the floor and he totally tripped and was laying on the ground. Then when she started singing she was like "I LOVE YOU JEREMY!" And then Jeremy did a bunch of flips, and he didn't fall.She was funny fabulous though, they all were, and she kept throwing her hair around [LOVE her hair] and it was just so cool. Her voice is amazing, and they we so good live. We are her new favorite city, as she told us. Which is nice to know. Makes us feel proud :] Here are some pictures! I didn't take them, they're off Photobucket, but that's what she was wearing anyway, and what the set looked like, so you can have an idea.

The opening bands were really good too. Paper Route was fun, they were the first ones on and they played a few lovely little songs. I liked them. Phantom Planet was wicked awesome. The front man, Alex, was really funny. Someone was like "Take your shirt off!" And he was like "I'm not gunna take my shirt off! Take your shirt off! Mine's half off already." Then he jumped into the crowd and Auntie's like "I always wanted to ddo that!" And he was supposed to have a 'spectacular' microphone catch, but it didn't go that well. Phantom Planet was wicked good. The last opening band to play was Jack's Mannequin and they were so absolutely wonderful! The lead vocalist, Andrew, played the piano as well as singing and it was just really cool. All three of them were really good!
But it was so much fun, and they were really good live, and I can't feel my feet, but THAT'S OKAY! Because I had a really brilliant time, and may I just say that, um, fake hair is the bomb? And we love the merch booth? Ahaha so it was really fabulousamazingshiztasticfierce!!
xoxo